This lyric is: #423

King Rat
by Sally Crosthwait


I told my therapist about my life
The carrot twisting like a knife
Into my heart and out my back
And fading my blue light to black

Still I need that one more pellet.
It’s so close now, I swear I smell it
Just up ahead around the bend
That’s gotta be my rainbow’s end
When I’m there it’ll all be perfect
All this bullshit will be worth it

And I’ll be glad I spent my days
Stuck like a lab rat in a maze
Yes, I’ll be glad I spent my youth
Relentlessly in search of proof
That I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I made my life hell?
I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I don’t like myself

I keep a hairpin in my jacket pocket
In case they shut the door and lock it
I can pick my way to freedom
But I’ll stay cause they might feed me

Every morning back again
And one day soon I’m sure to win
I kiss the dice and let ‘em roll
That’s gotta be my pot of gold
When it’s mine it’ll all be fine
At last I’ll have my peace of mind

And I’ll be glad I spent my days
Stuck like a lab rat in a maze
Yes, I’ll be glad I spent my youth
Relentlessly in search of proof
That I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I made my life hell?
I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I don’t like myself

I keep a bottle hidden in my bed
In case I need to clear my head

I keep a lighter underneath my crown
Some day I’ll burn my kingdom down

I told my hairdresser about my dreams
The ones that make me wake up screaming
She said I should take a day off
But I’ll wait for my big payoff

I’ve come too far to turn back now
Besides I couldn’t find my way out
I can take a little more
I’m certain I’m about to score
When I do, I’ll finally rest
And know that this was all for the best

And I’ll be glad I spent my days
Stuck like a lab rat in a maze
Yes, I’ll be glad I spent my youth
Relentlessly in search of proof
That I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I made my life hell?
I’m OK cause I’ve done well
Who cares if I don’t like myself

I keep a lighter underneath my crown
Some day I’ll burn my kingdom down

I keep up

Copyright 2000 Sally Crosthwait


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[This message has been edited by blakeh (edited 09-02-2002).]