The performers you saw and grew up with probably had a fairly decent sense of rhythm. If you have not got a good sense of timing then you need something to keep you from straying off the basic beat. Listening to your songs I can say that you either have a poor sense of timing or you do not have the recording and editing skills to edit seamlessly. IMO probably a bit of both. Your songs all have a very simple beat but even following that is proving very difficut for you. That is why a click track is essential to help you follow your own beat. You seem to want to experiment but refuse to lear the basics first. Before people can experiment, improv or elaborate on something they need to be able to play the basics.