Good answer Jim and to the point.
I am experienced in my own way but eternally a bad player.
Even where I figured I took the steps for that.

I have been looking at different tempos and seeing how they work together.

I like seeing how much I can do to see what falls in.

But I have to feel it.
Maybe no one else will hear it.
But I am really taking things at the level I feel good with.

I can learn a lot of nothing sitting on my limitations.

It is like a hard math I can not learn.
What can be done to find the closest estimate and feel true to myself.