John, I know a bit about tinnitus, I also have it but not as bad as you. It can get real bad at times. For a period of about two weeks it got so bad that I said "God you have to take this from me" and He did. I still have my old noise but the new noise is gone.

John, music is a language that everyone understands. It can sooth the soul or rouse it up, the listener can make it say to them what they want it to say. I could tell you a few stories how God use my Gospel songs in ways that most people would say it was just coincidence, but with God there is no such thing as coincidence, He is in control. The fact that your song may have prevented a suicide is great, worth putting that song out there. That song said what she needed to hear at that time, be it secular or gospel. Don't give up on life, there may be something else God wants to use you for, just be open to His leading. Music is your passion I know, but sometimes our passion can blind us to other things in life we are meant to do. Keep looking up and looking ahead, the future is unfolding as it should.