Hi Glynda

Now I'm feeling a bit better, I really don't know if this will help.

To witness that would of been horrific, especially being your Mom, and you where so young.

I met two ladies in my old job, a friend of theirs had been raped when she was younger, she struggled for years, they helped her out on many occasions, asked me for advice, but one day they went to her house, to find her deceased, she committed suicide. Now both of them are under counselling. They both looked at me and said, Michele, how could she do that, hurt us like that, I looked at them both and said, (do you really believe your friend was thinking at the time, that her friends would be the one's finding her, also do you believe that your friend would ever hurt you on purpose, "they both said NO", you need to understand, she couldn't live with the memory of being raped any longer) she was tired of reliving it) and I just hugged them both and said I'm so sorry.

Growing up I remember saying it on a few occasions, how can someone suicide, how selfish of them to do that, leave their children behind, etc. But I tell you, after what I experienced, I realized that those who suicide are not in reality, the pain is just too deep to see anything else.

Glynda, do you really believe that your Mom who loved you so much, would traumatize her Glyndale, No Glynda, I don't believe it. Your Mom must of been hurting real bad on the inside Glynda, and I really feel for you, and others who have lost their loved ones to suicide, if only they realized the pain passes over time.

Today, I understand, and I know your Mom would be "Shedding Tears from Heaven".

God bless, and I pray this helps.

Lv Michele

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