Having to watch as death steadily comes for you must be tremendously difficult to endure. It sounds like you are doing it valiantly. Given the clarity from that frame of reference, your advice concerning how to view life is greatly appreciated. Consider yourself fortunate to have had an interest you enjoyed so much that one of your biggest regrets is not having more time to do it. Not everybody has something that they feel that way about.

I live 1 mile from MD Andersen in Houston. If you ever go there for evaluation or treatment, let me know and I will help any way that I can.

I have a college buddy and friend of 50 years coming in tomorrow night to stay with me in order to have tests done on Monday.

With respect,
Martin

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