I can't answer your question John...but, I feel I'm going to Heaven, cause I feel I've done all my bad time...and being so sick lately, I really have felt closer to God...he has been by me for a long time now..every since my mom died..at times I didn't know what we/I was gonna do..and he always showed me the way...so, even if I don't know your answer...I feel you and your sons are gonna be ok......and be together......

glyn