Dam'it man! You'd be freakin' dangerous if they would just get your medication right... I COULDN'T STOP READING THIS! You're like a very well worded mind in a blender. It really makes me wish there was a way to bring this all together...

Can I suggest something? An experiment? Just for fun?
Flip through a magazine (or online, whatever) and find a still picture that inspires you. Then, write one line at a time about your inspiration, stopping between each line to re-examine the picture. Or, create a story and allow the picture to set the scene. NO PORN! Call it a focus exercise and just see what happens smile