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Update 16/02/2012

Hi all,

We are all safe, moved, started the kids in new schools, and they are both adjusting well.

Now on to the next step, I spoke to a lady this afternoon from the Domestic Violence Court Advocacy services, and just that one phone call, she has put things in place for me and our children, thank God. I will have three solicitors at this stage, and I will fill you all in as I go through the Legal system in which I lost full trust in, but this time I feel things are going to be different. I'm getting a lot of support that I'm getting emotional telling you all.

This lady I was telling her about past issue's I had with solicitors, police, etc, and she was so supportive, and told me that those things shouldn't of happened. I'm crying, because I will never understand the reasons that many in the Legal system would smash me like they did, and I'm praying hard, please don't put me through anymore, that's enough for me.

Financially, my ex is hitting me hard, no maintenance for two weeks, debts he's left in my name, yep he's being very nasty, and I can't lie to you, I'm hurting that he's pushing every button, but I just have to keep taking it in stride, and pray.

I will keep coming back and updating you all, and I can't wait to this is all over, so I can get myself back into writing some new songs.

Wishing you all the best, and I hope you are all well, lv Michele

Hi you guys,

Just letting you know, it's all getting worse, I'm moving house in the next couple of days. I had to make a decision last night to move, as if I don't I will lose everything all over again. Being honest, the material things don't matter to me, my children, that's a different story.

I'm frightened, and I'm praying hard, my kids are an emotional mess, they love their schools, my son has just started High School, and they aren't coping with the move.

In the next two days, is going to be real tough, moving all this furniture into storage, psychologist appointment on Saturday for me and the kids, running around finding them a new school, and solicitors, you name it, I'm on OVERLOAD.

I know I'm doing the best for me and the kids, I went to a counsellor today, and I filled the black board of all the abuse that I've been through, well actually not all, it wouldn't fit. When I looked at that black board, I just said, Oh my God, that's enough.

I'm nearly 49, and I'm going to stay single, I've stopped contact with the friend I'd met on the net, because at this time in my life, it's time to turn it around. Stop the cycle, be strong, and pray that the Legal system I'm about to go through, does the right thing to protect me and the kids this time round.

I will try and jump on board to let you all know that we are ok, and I'd like to say thanks for all of your good advice, I'm taking it all in, and I'm about to make big changes in my life, and my two youngest children's. Positive one's.

Say a prayer for us, and hopefully catch up with you all soon, love always your Aussie friend Michele



Hi you guys, gosh, I've missed you all so much. Please tell me what you've all been up to? Hah! :)I need to laugh! laughIt's good therapy for me.

I'm now single, and I'm still going through a painful separation, yep the man I loved has been cheating on me, and is a man I never new. Yep, two marriages now, and both have left painful scars. I've got lots of help and support from friends, family, Doctor, Psychologist here, I have good days and bad.

I'm currently taking Valium to help me sleep at night, and I'm getting through the bad anxiety, and panic attacks with out any other medication.

All my life I've attracted abusive men, but not any more, I'm buying myself a VIBRATOR, LOL, it's cheaper to look after, I don't have to cook for it, I don't have to wash it's cloths, etc, Nah, just joking around regarding the Vibrator.

With all the pain I'm going through, I'm fighting back, and I'm going to keep fighting. I'm now putting in for jobs, because I'm so determined that this year, I'm going to take a trip to Nashville, and I'm going to full-fill my biggest dream and have myself a ball.

So please update me on the Gossip???

Love to all Michele





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HiDee Mz Michele...

Woa...So Sorry to hear of Your New Singleness...& Depression, M'LadyChum! Dunno What to Say...(Even Vibrators can Break-Down & Go Haywire...heh)

DO Wish Ya Continued Luck..in Life..in Love..in Music. All take Pluck...to Succeed...& You, AussiLady, have always had a BIG Supply! Hang in there...pen some Sad Ones...'till ya Feel Good Again...no sense wasting all this good Blues Inspiration..before..Soon..I'll bet...it's behind ya & the Fun Songs start Blossoming-Again!

Still no sale on the Pink Place yet..so..I'm still pluggin' away on Clock Repairs...which are UP lately. VA's not-yet reduced my Disability Check, so we're hanging-in too, awaiting a House to Sell, so we can "Retire"...head up to NashCity & try to record a Vietnam Remembrance CD..ahead of the 50th Anniversary...&..with luck & $150..& The Right Partner..I'm jointly gonna form a BMI Publishing Co...soon. (Tho I expect it'll be 2-3 years before I truly Understand the Biz of it.) But...I've already got 2000+ lyrics, maybe 200 co-writes, & 8 CD Masters to market..so..guess I better get hoppin' on it before I get Elderly..heh!

Again, Good Luck with all the Dreams & Problems along the Way...

Big Hugs to my Favorite Down-Under Survivor,
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Hang in there Michele, there's plenty of people here for you anytime you need to chat or vent.

Note to Stan: My brother just bought a house in Orlando that started off at 750K and they got it for 320K. I think you need to ride it out until after the election. Everyone is holding onto their money tight right now until things change and nothing will change significantly until after the election. It's just reality right now.

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Awe Michele, BIG HUGSSSSSS coming your way!!!

Please know that what you are going through has been gone through by countless others who came through it better off on the other side...My wife is a therapist, and believe me, while she tries to maintain nuetrality, there are times when she just wants to scream at the woman "Run baby run! You don't deserve that crap!!"

On the lighter side, I expect you to Post again in a year or so with the same subject line, only the "single" will be refering to a hit song:-)

Hang in there Babe, you ARE loved!

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Hi Stan

Just finished baking yummy cookies for the kids. Can't stay for long, gotta wash those dishes then off to bed.

Gosh I've missed you guys hey, and I'm back, but as to writing any lyrics, I've lost my heart and soul, I'm empty. From five years old, men have used me for their sexual pleasures, and you know what, that's enough for me. "What a waste of a good Woman", yep, that's me. You know, he yelled down the phone at me, you just think your just F...king perfect, over and over again. And you know what, if being perfect is loving them, cooking for them, never cheating on them, cleaning up house after them, listening to them, having strong values, and beliefs in love and marriage, if that's being Mrs Perfect, well I like being Mrs PERFECT hah.

He's just lost a good Woman, and most likely the only one that will ever love him like I did. The pain he's put me through, is cruel, especially him knowing everything that I'd been through in my first marriage. No I will never let another man ever use me again.

"Now it's time for me" coming up 49 this year, I'm going to start living my life, to be WELL & HAPPY, yeah, it's time for the fun to begin, laugh, smile, love my kids, and move on. I'm a lot stronger this time, and I'm really starting to understand my symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress disorder.

I thought you'd sold your clock business, I hope things start to go your way Stan, you deserve it hey.

Nice to be back, and I'll be listening to some songs soon, even if I just get on the boards and listen to two or three songs, might give me the medication I need to start writing again.

Wow, 2,000 + lyrics!

Big smooch back at you, love & hugs your Aussie Mate, Michele

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HiDee Mz Michele...

Woa...So Sorry to hear of Your New Singleness...& Depression, M'LadyChum! Dunno What to Say...(Even Vibrators can Break-Down & Go Haywire...heh)

DO Wish Ya Continued Luck..in Life..in Love..in Music. All take Pluck...to Succeed...& You, AussiLady, have always had a BIG Supply! Hang in there...pen some Sad Ones...'till ya Feel Good Again...no sense wasting all this good Blues Inspiration..before..Soon..I'll bet...it's behind ya & the Fun Songs start Blossoming-Again!

Still no sale on the Pink Place yet..so..I'm still pluggin' away on Clock Repairs...which are UP lately. VA's not-yet reduced my Disability Check, so we're hanging-in too, awaiting a House to Sell, so we can "Retire"...head up to NashCity & try to record a Vietnam Remembrance CD..ahead of the 50th Anniversary...&..with luck & $150..& The Right Partner..I'm jointly gonna form a BMI Publishing Co...soon. (Tho I expect it'll be 2-3 years before I truly Understand the Biz of it.) But...I've already got 2000+ lyrics, maybe 200 co-writes, & 8 CD Masters to market..so..guess I better get hoppin' on it before I get Elderly..heh!

Again, Good Luck with all the Dreams & Problems along the Way...

Big Hugs to my Favorite Down-Under Survivor,
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Hi Brian, thankS, I'm hanging in there hey. I think what's really helping me at the moment, is I can see, and you know what, I'm a good woman, loving, caring, committed, don't believe in cheating, I know who I am, and he just lost himself a beautiful woman hey.

As to trusting another Man, No, I don't want one, from now on, I'm just going to have friends, my kids, and ME> smile

I've got still work to do here, so I can move on fully, and yes it's painful, but I know I'm stronger, and Life, here I come.

I hope your health is much better Brian, and it's great to chat, thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being here for me, all of you on the boards, JPF is a very special place, and has had a huge impact on my life, as to me surviving.

One more thing Brian, how do I change my name, from Bolton, to my maiden name, Howlett?????

Lv always your Aussie friend Michele



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Note to Stan: My brother just bought a house in Orlando that started off at 750K and they got it for 320K. I think you need to ride it out until after the election. Everyone is holding onto their money tight right now until things change and nothing will change significantly until after the election. It's just reality right now.

Brian

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Hi Midnite, you know I have come out from the other side many times, from a very young age. A psychiatrist can't believe I'm not Mentally Ill, but thankfully I'm not. I do suffer with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, but I'm learning lots about my symptoms, which is helping in a big way.

For a long time my husband told me it was me, and I know now it wasn't me at all, it's called Domestic Violence. Before we split for good, I got on the net and read up on the effects of your partner yelling at you, also difficult behaviour, emotional abuse, intimidation, and gosh, I wish I had of read that information years ago hey. The stronger I got, the worse he treated me, painful. I will never forget him saying to me, ARE YOU GOING TO PLAY HOUSE OR NOT, well silly me did for a week, until he ..................... hurt me bad, not physical, sexually, after I'd had a visit to the nursing home with my Mum who is slowly dying. Yep I lost the plot, but not for long. Anger, yep I'm very angry, I said to the Mental Health doctor, put me in a room with him and let me get this anger and pain out where it belongs hah. The doctor said he couldn't do that, grrr!

For what reasons would he go sleep with a prostitute then his beautiful wife hah, he makes me literally sick, right to the bottom of my stomach. My Doctor is now doing all tests to make sure he hasn't given me any sexual diseases. If he has, he better leave town.

I've been talking to a lot of people, lots of help, seeing if they can do anything to help me and the kids, good people, just like your wife Midnite.

Thanks for the big HUG SSSSSS, and your encouraging words, they mean a great deal to me, I'm never giving up, because I deserve to be Well & Happy. Lv Michele

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Awe Michele, BIG HUGSSSSSS coming your way!!!

Please know that what you are going through has been gone through by countless others who came through it better off on the other side...My wife is a therapist, and believe me, while she tries to maintain nuetrality, there are times when she just wants to scream at the woman "Run baby run! You don't deserve that crap!!"

On the lighter side, I expect you to Post again in a year or so with the same subject line, only the "single" will be refering to a hit song:-)

Hang in there Babe, you ARE loved!

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Michele, good for you. Not all men are bad but there are too many and that gives men in general a bad rap. There are bad women too, that is just the kind of a world we live in, getting worst too, I believe.

My wife and I just celebrated our 50th wedding anniversary. Life is never smooth, many bumbs along the way,but we made it this far. Keep your eyes on the prize and aim wisely, life is too short to suffer abuse. All the best.


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Hi Everette

Wow, 50 years, that's so special. That makes me smile Everette. smile

Yep I agree there is bad women too, and I know there are good men, I know many here on the boards, and here around me. It's I've attracted bad one's all my life, and that won't be happening to me ever again. All I've ever wanted out of a Man, was to love me, show me that making love, exploring it's beauty wasn't for just their advantage, don't cheat on me, don't sneak around with other women, be my best friend, someone I can trust, doesn't yell at me, tell me what to do, put me down, etc, "I've never found TRUE LOVE". frown I look over what I write and find those hooks)

My wall is now up, and I'm holding my sword, coming up 49 in May, I'm now going to live life for me. That's how it's going to be, I won't trust again.

Back later to edit what I've written to you, got doctors this morning, canteen duties at school, and job hunting hey.

Hugs Michele

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Michele, good for you. Not all men are bad but there are too many and that gives men in general a bad rap. There are bad women too, that is just the kind of a world we live in, getting worst too, I believe.

My wife and I just celebrated our 50th wedding anniversary. Life is never smooth, many bumbs along the way,but we made it this far. Keep your eyes on the prize and aim wisely, life is too short to suffer abuse. All the best.

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No woman should ever put up with an abusive mate.
You just have to realize now that you are strong and better off without one in your life.


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Michelle, despite the new round of pain and disappointment you've just gone through, I've got to say it seems you're in a very good place right now.

I've seen some posts from you in the past that made me really worry about you, but this time I don't feel any worry at all. You're good and feisty, and that's the best way to respond to what you've just described. You SHOULD be mad! I'm glad you are deciding to move forward and take care of your kids and yourself. Friends are what you need, not some new relationship. I suppose that vibrator couldn't hurt either, LOL. But seriously, I'm sorry for the pain you've had, but moreso, I'm happy to see you're responding to it in the healthiest way possible--with a bit of anger, with an understanding that you are a good woman with plenty to offer, and with the decision to move on and seek your own kind of joy instead of someone else's.

I hope you let it all go soon, and walk ahead without the burden of someone else's bad behavior bringing you down.

Cheers mate! Make some lamingtons! smile

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Hi Michele! Good to see you back on JPF. Here's a youtube video that always makes me laugh: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGeKSiCQkPw

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Hi My Awesome Aussie JPFriend,

I am so very sorry that you had to endure these more than difficult trials. I never like hearing about a broken marriage, but in some cases it is something that has to be done. I sense a determination and strength in your tone that you have accepted the outcome and are ready to move on with a positive spirit, though I know it won't be easy. Take one day at a time. Remember to draw on the strength of friends and family (that you can truly trust) but most of all lean on God. Man can and will fail, but God never does! God bless you Michele!

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Hi Dak, gosh I've missed you all so much hey.

Yep I'm certainly better off with out him, our home is a home, peaceful, and the kids and I are much happier. I'm holding my sword right in front of my heart, and it's going take me a very long time to put that sword down. For now, I'm going to live life to be well and happy.

Thanks for your support, means a great deal to me, smile hugs & lv Michele

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No woman should ever put up with an abusive mate.
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Hi Mark, all of you here just makes me smile, I've missed you all so much.

You're right, I am in a very good place right now, I'm happier, and the anxiety, panic attacks are easing slowly. I'm very tired today, I think because I've been sitting on the edge for too long, I'm now off, and my body is actually starting to relax.

Yes, last year my posts was my husband, twisting me every which way, that my past issue's were rising up too, and I now realize that's the reasons I was losing control, going all over the place mentally. Thankfully it has all come to an end, I'm ready to fight for me, I'm in a happy and safe place, and it's going to stay that way. When others come at me any more, I'm going to brush them off, and tell them to stay right away from me hey, that's it for me.

I am a lot stronger, and the psychologist told me, that's the reasons he got worse, because I have grown so much, and I was sticking up for myself and the kids, and boy he didn't like that at all. The abuse got worse!

I am Mad too, but I'm going to do constructive things with this anger, he's not worth it. I believe he will get his own in the end, it's his loss, my gain, because watch me go now, I'm free as a bird, I'm not trapped any more, nothing is holding down my wings, I CAN FLY!

As to the Vibrator, lol, no it wouldn't hurt, eek or maybe it would hurt, wink now that is funny, I can't stop laughing. laugh Looks like I have to go to one of those sex shops to have a look for a good one, now I'm hysterical. laugh laugh

I do have a lot better understanding this time round, I'm heaps stronger, and I can see what's happened very clearly. I am a good woman, and he's lost me, I look at him now, and my heart is cold, nothing is their, it's gone forever.

Mark, thank you for your lovely words of encouragement, I'm going get through this, I know I will. Hugs & Lv Michele

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Michelle, despite the new round of pain and disappointment you've just gone through, I've got to say it seems you're in a very good place right now.

I've seen some posts from you in the past that made me really worry about you, but this time I don't feel any worry at all. You're good and feisty, and that's the best way to respond to what you've just described. You SHOULD be mad! I'm glad you are deciding to move forward and take care of your kids and yourself. Friends are what you need, not some new relationship. I suppose that vibrator couldn't hurt either, LOL. But seriously, I'm sorry for the pain you've had, but moreso, I'm happy to see you're responding to it in the healthiest way possible--with a bit of anger, with an understanding that you are a good woman with plenty to offer, and with the decision to move on and seek your own kind of joy instead of someone else's.

I hope you let it all go soon, and walk ahead without the burden of someone else's bad behavior bringing you down.

Cheers mate! Make some lamingtons! smile

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Hi John, thanks for making me smile, smile that's the cutest video clip I've seen, I loved every bit of it, so funny. laugh

Yep it's great to be back, grin I'm missed you all so much. Hugs & Lv Michele

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Hi again Brian, thank you so much, you just made my NIGHT! I like being Michele Howlett, YIPEE, now I'm SMILING!

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A big hi to you too my Awesome friend Lynn, grin gosh I've missed you, how are you hah?

Brian has just changed my name back to my maiden name, Michele Howlett, I feel so much better. smile I'm off to the Registration office to change all my licences over hey. I love being Michele Howlett.

Lynn, you know what, the morning before my husband hurt me, I was woken to hearing the Lords Prayer. My husband nearly had me convinced into doing things that deep down I would of only been doing for him.

The Lord's Prayer
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Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name.
Your Kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as in heaven
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins,
as we forgive those who sin against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For the kingdom,
the power and the glory are yours.
Now and for ever.
Amen.

I was blown away, over and over in my head, especially this bit, Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, and I said to myself, I can't do what he wants me to do, because I'm not being true to myself, and it's against everything I believe in.

The next day, when I told him I couldn't do what he wants me to do, he told me it was over, he doesn't want a marriage, or relationship, the seriousness, he just wants to have fun, well you know the fun he wants, well NO THANKS. So I now thank God for reminding me of what's right! God's Way!

I am currently drawing strength from friends, family, my medical practitioner, counsellors, and just people in general, I'm okay. If I have a relapse one day, and I get back up, that's okay too, I'm very happy at the moment, I like being who I am. I'm in a peaceful place, and I'm about to enjoy every day I have left in this life, I'm over all the CRAP, I'm determined to stay well, and be HAPPY.

It's so nice to be back, and to catch up with you all. Remember now, I'm Michele Howlett hah. grin

Special hugs & Lv Michele

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Hi My Awesome Aussie JPFriend,

I am so very sorry that you had to endure these more than difficult trials. I never like hearing about a broken marriage, but in some cases it is something that has to be done. I sense a determination and strength in your tone that you have accepted the outcome and are ready to move on with a positive spirit, though I know it won't be easy. Take one day at a time. Remember to draw on the strength of friends and family (that you can truly trust) but most of all lean on God. Man can and will fail, but God never does! God bless you Michele!

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Howlett...what rhymes with Howlett???

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Well I'm not sure whether to offer congratulations or condolences. Anyway, you sound happy to be moving forward and that is the main thing. So do just that - move forward and forget about the past. There is a big world out there and now you are free to enjoy it. Travel to Nashville for that vacation of a lifetime.

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Hi Michelle:

I'm wishing you the best and congratulating you for having the courage to walk away from an abusive relationship. Life is not always fair but each of us must do what we can to control our personal lives. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

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Hi Lynn

That's so true, you know I am letting go, and from now on I'm staying away from alcohol. Alcohol and I just don't Mix very well at all, and it's no good for you when you're hurting hey.

Special hugs, Lv Michele

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Hi Dak,

You know what, he's not even worth throwing in the toilet, lol. I'm going to keep all that good energy I've got for me, and my kids. smile

Hugs Michele

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You'll be fine. Exercise every chance you get and a healthy diet is so key. It's vital for you and the kids. Start them young on living healthy. It'll set good habits at a young age that they will hopefully carry over into adulthood. Maybe get a physical and have basic bloodwork done. Most people are Vit D deficient and that can cause depression and weak bones. Make sure you are getting enough Vit D. via sunlight or natural supplement of Vit D3. Very important!!! God bless you!!

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Hi Colin

It's congratulations! grin I need to look after me hah, especially for my kids, they need their Mum.

You know Colin, I'm so determined to take that trip to Nashville, that would be an amazing experience of a life time. whistle I've never been out of Australia, so when I do go, I will be very nervous hey.

Thanks for all your support, hugs & Lv Michele

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Well I'm not sure whether to offer congratulations or condolences. Anyway, you sound happy to be moving forward and that is the main thing. So do just that - move forward and forget about the past. There is a big world out there and now you are free to enjoy it. Travel to Nashville for that vacation of a lifetime.

Cheers,

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Hi Dave

Thanks for your well wishes, that means a lot to me. My journey hasn't been fair, and that's where I have to stay strong, and turn it around so that no one ever abuses me again. This is my time!

He's still abusing me at the moment, dishing me out money to pay debts off in my name, which were both ours, and he said to me yesterday, I'm helping you out with the bills, debts aren't I, like he's doing me a favour.

He left debts in my name of over $11,000, a Ute that I brought for him, that he drove for four and a half years, but now doesn't want it, because he's got the family car in his name, which he's kept, and he recently went and brought himself a $14,000 motor bike.

How do you take two kids and yourself in a Ute, it can't be done.

Ok, gotta stop talking about it, I'm getting angry. mad

Hugs Michele

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I'm wishing you the best and congratulating you for having the courage to walk away from an abusive relationship. Life is not always fair but each of us must do what we can to control our personal lives. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

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I hope you are able to get a lawyer and protect yourself and your children financially as best you can. In the USA, a court would never allow the husband to take off after having affairs and take the family car and leave the debt and an unsuitable car for the wife and children. Hopefully Australia has a fair legal system.

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Hi Brian, I have now got a Lawyer, and I'm praying that this can be sorted fast, or I'm about to lose everything I own, and he knows it.

I know he doesn't want it to go to court, because he doesn't want any one to know what he's been doing. I've kept a copy of his profile which I found on his computer when I clicked on the history. If he keeps being selfish, and nasty, he's picked the wrong girl, I'm ready to fight for me and our kids.

When he hurt me, I ended up in hospital, and he deleted over 100 text messages in my phone which could of been used as evidence. When I see my solicitor, I'm going to see if these messages can be retrieved hey.

Brian, I'm frightened of the Legal system, as I've been traumatized through it before. My first husband got away with it, so being honest, I'm praying that they don't do it to me again.

I'm currently looking for a job fast, so I can provide for the kids, and then I don't have to ask him for money. This is so painful, and I'm hanging in hey. Now I'm emotional. cry

Thanks for your support Brian, hugs Michele

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Michele,

You do sound stonger girl.

I have had my fair share and what I learned is that you attract needy people to you when you are the same.

This is a wake up call to make Michele strong and happy with herself. Anyway, getting a man when you "need" one isn't always the best thing. Finding a person when you are centered and strong who respects you and works with you is a better situation.

Talk to folks, do your research, the power in knowledge and gathering your friends around you will keep you moving. Take care of yourself and follow your dreams.

Everything that has been done to you has not been by your choosing, they took your voice, but you have a voice now so go sing your song and write your lyric of your life girl, don't let them take your song, becuase that song is your heart and soul.

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Hi Tammy

So nice to hear from you, I've missed you so much. How are you?

As to me being stronger, I am, but I do have days when I'm weak. Last night I just laid in bed, and cried, but I feel a lot better today. I have to let the pain flow out of the inside, it's good to cry, I understand I'm going through the healing process. frown I'm also under a lot of financial pressure, and all the rest, so busy, studying now, business cert II, my kids, my new friend I've met on the net, chatting to him, also all of you my JPF friends, who are so supportive, being busy is a good thing for me. I also have counselling appointments, doctors, psychologist, solicitor, too much, that I'm tired. sleep

I'm smiling today, and Tammy you are certainly right with what you've said here: Finding a person when you are centered and strong who respects you and works with you is a better situation.


I couldn't agree with you more, my sword is up, firmly in front of my heart.

They nearly did take my song, but I've got it back, thanks.

Everything that has been done to you has not been by your choosing, they took your voice, but you have a voice now so go sing your song and write your lyric of your life girl, don't let them take your song, becuase that song is your heart and soul.


Gotta go, lots to do before I go to my course tonight. crazy

Special hug Lv Michele

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Michele,

You do sound stonger girl.

I have had my fair share and what I learned is that you attract needy people to you when you are the same.

This is a wake up call to make Michele strong and happy with herself. Anyway, getting a man when you "need" one isn't always the best thing. Finding a person when you are centered and strong who respects you and works with you is a better situation.

Talk to folks, do your research, the power in knowledge and gathering your friends around you will keep you moving. Take care of yourself and follow your dreams.

Everything that has been done to you has not been by your choosing, they took your voice, but you have a voice now so go sing your song and write your lyric of your life girl, don't let them take your song, becuase that song is your heart and soul.

Love and hugs to you my friend,

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Hi Ande

Even though this is painful, cry I know I'm better off. I'm hanging in, I have all of you here, and I've just found me a new friend who has had me laughing, smiling, and you all here too make me smile. Thanks so much for your support, it means a great deal to me, and your words keep fighting. smile

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Hi Michele my good friend....

I know exactly what you're going through....trust me...I look at things different than some of my old friends...I found out that things that happened in the past that I couldn't do anything about, was best left right there ....in the past...life is too short to worry about things that Happened to me...but, I put my all into moving on and not looking back...I couldn't do anything about the past...but I sure hell could make the future better...we all make mistakes and will continue to...I try to learn from them and not do that again...I found out that the only person that could change things and make me happy was ME....

I've walked away from a lot of crap and came out the better for it...girl, I've lived like 4 life times in my life...I've been by my self for a long time now and I'm happy this way...oh I'll tease about wanting a man...but right now I don't have to answer to no one and loving it...and the men in my life that didn't work out...well if I was as bad as they said, I wouldn't want to live with me either....

Most of my songs are from a woman's point of view of bad realationships, some parts are from my life..but most are made up in my head...I try and place myself in that person's shoes and try and feel how they felt..

But, for me to be happy in my real life, I've had to walk away from a lot of crap that even if I tried, could not change...so I voted to let that go, close that book and lock it...and make the rest of my life the best I can make it...I know what happened yesterday, and live for today...but, I look so forward to tomorrow and see what life has for me...good or bad I deal with it, smile and move on....because ...No one is gonna keep me down, I move on and keep smiling...I'm so excited to hear new songs, esp. mine and it amazes me what songs come out of my head..I keep my self busy thinking about songs I'm gonna write...it keeps me busy enough and helps me not care about what happened in the past...and the people that hurt me, well, that's their problem...and when I smile and keep going, man, you should see them stand there and wonder what's going on with me....no matter what they dish out.....I may think about it and deal with it for the moment, but don't let it get to me...that's over and I've got alot of living to do...

Wish I knew the right words to help you, we all are different..and I know you will come out all this smiling as I do...kick it to the side, don't let that crap get in your way...

love you....wish I could see you smiling as I am right now...

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Michele, I feel like a friend after getting to know a small amount about you here on jpf. Glyn's advice is "spot on." You have so much strength inside, don't worry about tapping into it tomorrow.

If I could change any of your circumstances for the better, I would. As it is I can only offer "big sister" advice( take the best-leave the rest-remember it's only offered 'cause I do give a s**t.)

1. Put all those fears, doubts, self-conversations into music.
2. Do your best, leave the rest to a higher power.
3. Whenever you want a friend just look for someone who needs one.
4. No matter how much you want it; there is no such thing as security.
5. Set aside time to remember and review all the "good" you already know.

There is no end to the blessings we wish for you.

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Hi Michele

I had not noticed the post, having not been someone who gets on this forum very often. Glad I caught it, was sad to hear of your situation, but happy to see all the nice responses and support that you have been getting.

Starting over is tough, but the best part of you and your life "is not over" like in our mutual songs about that subject.

Having seen many people go through what you are going through, I can tell you that although you feel you are in one of the worst storms of your life, the light will break through the darkest clouds and the loudest and scariest thunder can change into your music. It will take time and prayers and you are getting both right now.

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Hi Glyn, Pamela and Doug, and all, smile

I've been packing all day, and I'm just about to go to bed. But I wanted to reply, I miss you all so much, and thank you for always being here for me.

I've moving in the next 24 hours, so I don't know when I will get the time to jump on board here, as on Monday, I've got to enrol my children into a new school, I have a psychologist appointment in the morning and also my son. Family support are jumping on board, solicitors appointments this week, you name it I'm doing it.

Today, I was an emotional mess, but I'm okay tonight, the kids are also accepting that we are moving. It's like my sister in law said, they will settle because they won't be in the war zone any more, and so will I.

My psychologist is going to do [color:#CC0000][color:#CC0000]Cognitive behaviour therapy [/color][/color] with me as I suffer with POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER I'd never heard of Cognitive therapy before, and I'm now looking forward to working with her to turn my life around in a more positive direction. I thought I'd paste it here to show you all.

I have to go now, I'm exhausted, thanks for all your good advice, and I hold you all very close to my heart. On JPF, I don't need that Sword in front of my heart hey.

Stay well, love to all Michele

Psychotherapy is a form of treatment for emotional and psychological problems where a person talks with a mental health professional such as a psychiatrist, psychologist or counsellor. Cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) is a form of psychotherapy that helps a person to change unhelpful or unhealthy thinking habits, feelings and behaviours.

CBT involves the use of practical self-help strategies, which are designed to bring about positive and immediate changes in the person’s quality of life.

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Insomnia
Marriage or relationship problems
Certain emotional or behavioural problems in children or teenagers.
CBT is also used to help many more psychological problems. In some cases, other forms of therapy used at the same time may be recommended for best results. Talk to your doctor for further information and advice.

The interaction of thoughts, feelings and behaviour
The core philosophy of CBT is that thoughts, feelings and behaviours combine to influence a person’s quality of life.

For example, severe shyness in social situations (social phobia) may stem from the person thinking that other people will always find them boring or stupid. This automatic belief causes the person to feel extremely anxious at social gatherings.

Their behaviour may include stammering, sweating and other uncomfortable symptoms. The person then feels overwhelmed with negative emotions (such as shame) and negative self-talk (‘I’m such an idiot’). Their fear of social situations may become worse with every bad experience.

CBT aims to teach people that it is possible to have control over one’s thoughts, feelings and behaviours. CBT helps the person to challenge and overcome automatic beliefs, and use practical strategies to change or modify their behaviour. The result is more positive feelings, which in turn lead to more positive thoughts and behaviours.

CBT is a combination of two techniques
CBT focuses on changing unhelpful or unhealthy thoughts and behaviours. It is a combination of two therapies: ‘cognitive therapy’ and ‘behaviour therapy’. The underlying belief of both these techniques is that healthy thoughts lead to healthy feelings and behaviours. Some of the underlying theories of these two approaches include:
Cognitive therapy – the aim here is to change the way the person thinks about the issue that’s causing concern. Flawed or distorted thoughts cause self-destructive feelings and behaviours. For example, someone who thinks they are unworthy of love or respect may feel withdrawn in social situations and behave shyly. Cognitive therapy challenges these flawed thoughts. Many techniques are available. One technique involves asking the person to come up with evidence to ‘prove’ that they are unlovable. This may include prompting the person to acknowledge the family and friends who love and respect them. This evidence helps the person to realise that their underlying belief is false. This is called ‘cognitive restructuring’. The person learns to identify and challenge flawed thoughts, and replace them with more realistic thoughts.
Behavioural therapy – the aim here is to teach the person techniques or skills to alter their behaviour. For example, a person who behaves shyly at a party may have negative thoughts and feelings about themselves. They may also lack social skills. Behavioural therapy teaches the person more helpful behaviours. For example, the person may be taught conversational skills which they practise in therapy and in social situations. Negative thoughts and feelings ease as the person discovers they can enjoy themselves in social situations.
CBT has a good success rate because it combines the techniques of these two very effective therapies.

What to expect from therapy
The specifics of treatment vary according to the person’s problem. However, CBT typically includes the following:
Assessment – this may include filling out various questionnaires to help you describe your particular problem and pinpoint distressing symptoms. You will be asked to complete forms from time to time so that you and the therapist can plot your progress and identify problems or symptoms that need extra attention.
Person education – the therapist provides written materials (such as brochures or books) to help you learn more about your particular problem. The adage ‘knowledge is power’ is a cornerstone of CBT. A good understanding of your particular psychological problem will help you to dismiss unfounded fears, which will help to ease your anxiety and other negative feelings.
Goal setting – the therapist helps you to draw up a list of goals you wish to achieve from therapy; for example, you may want to overcome your shyness in social settings. You and the therapist brainstorm practical strategies to help fulfil these goals.
Practise of strategies – you practise your new strategies with the therapist. For example, you may role-play difficult social situations or come up with realistic self-talk (how you talk to yourself in your head) to replace unhealthy or negative self-talk.
Homework – you will be expected to actively participate in your own therapy – for example, the therapist may ask you to keep a diary – and you are encouraged to use the practical strategies during the course of your daily life and report the results to the therapist.
Medication issues
Medication is not always needed. For example, CBT can be as effective as medication in the treatment of depression and anxiety. In other cases, you and your therapist may decide that medication, together with CBT, would produce the best results. For example, people with bipolar disorder usually benefit from medication that helps control their mood swings.

Issues to consider
Before choosing CBT, issues you may like to consider include:
CBT may not be the best form of therapy for people with any type of brain disease or injury that impairs their rational thinking.
CBT requires you to actively participate in treatment. For example, you may be asked to keep detailed diaries on thoughts, feelings and behaviours. If you are not prepared to put in the work, you may be disappointed with the results of therapy.
CBT involves a close working relationship between you and your therapist. Professional trust and respect is important. If you don’t like the therapist at the first interview, look for another one.
While CBT is considered a short-term form of psychotherapy, it may still take months or longer for you to successfully challenge and overcome unhealthy patterns of thinking and behaviour. CBT may disappoint you if you are looking for a ‘quick fix’.
Where to get help
Your doctor
Psychologist
Psychiatrist
Counsellor or psychotherapist – search the PACFA National Register to find a practitioner near you
Local community health centre
Australian Psychological Referral Service Tel. (03) 8662 3300 or 1800 333 497
Anxiety Recovery Centre Victoria HelpLine Tel. (03) 9830 0533 or 1300 ANXIETY (269 438)
Things to remember
Cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) is a type of psychotherapy that helps the person to change unhelpful or unhealthy habits of thinking, feeling and behaving.
CBT involves the use of practical self-help strategies, which are designed to affect positive and immediate changes in the person’s quality of life.
CBT can be as effective as medication to treat depression and anxiety.


Originally Posted by glynda
Hi Michele my good friend....

I know exactly what you're going through....trust me...I look at things different than some of my old friends...I found out that things that happened in the past that I couldn't do anything about, was best left right there ....in the past...life is too short to worry about things that Happened to me...but, I put my all into moving on and not looking back...I couldn't do anything about the past...but I sure hell could make the future better...we all make mistakes and will continue to...I try to learn from them and not do that again...I found out that the only person that could change things and make me happy was ME....

I've walked away from a lot of crap and came out the better for it...girl, I've lived like 4 life times in my life...I've been by my self for a long time now and I'm happy this way...oh I'll tease about wanting a man...but right now I don't have to answer to no one and loving it...and the men in my life that didn't work out...well if I was as bad as they said, I wouldn't want to live with me either....

Most of my songs are from a woman's point of view of bad realationships, some parts are from my life..but most are made up in my head...I try and place myself in that person's shoes and try and feel how they felt..

But, for me to be happy in my real life, I've had to walk away from a lot of crap that even if I tried, could not change...so I voted to let that go, close that book and lock it...and make the rest of my life the best I can make it...I know what happened yesterday, and live for today...but, I look so forward to tomorrow and see what life has for me...good or bad I deal with it, smile and move on....because ...No one is gonna keep me down, I move on and keep smiling...I'm so excited to hear new songs, esp. mine and it amazes me what songs come out of my head..I keep my self busy thinking about songs I'm gonna write...it keeps me busy enough and helps me not care about what happened in the past...and the people that hurt me, well, that's their problem...and when I smile and keep going, man, you should see them stand there and wonder what's going on with me....no matter what they dish out.....I may think about it and deal with it for the moment, but don't let it get to me...that's over and I've got alot of living to do...

Wish I knew the right words to help you, we all are different..and I know you will come out all this smiling as I do...kick it to the side, don't let that crap get in your way...

love you....wish I could see you smiling as I am right now...

Your Texas friend...glyn

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Moving can be a lot of work. Just remember to think about all the good things you have to look forward to - no more abuse, exciting new places, new friends waiting for both you and the kids. A fresh start is just what you need. Look forward, not back!!


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Hi Colin,

I have to go to bed now, and I agree moving forward is going to be a lot of work. You made me smile when I read this :no more abuse, exciting new places, new friends waiting for both you and the kids. A fresh start is just what you need. Look forward, not back!!

Thanks for making me smile, and giving me positive feedback. smile

I'll do it, I have the biggest and best supporters who are cheering for me from all over the world, JPF hey. whistle

Goodnight.

Special hugs, lv Michele


Originally Posted by Colin Ward
Moving can be a lot of work. Just remember to think about all the good things you have to look forward to - no more abuse, exciting new places, new friends waiting for both you and the kids. A fresh start is just what you need. Look forward, not back!!

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Just updated my original post. Thanks.

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HiDee Mz Howlett & Family...

Still Pullin' For Yas, here in Florida-Land! Appreciate Your Updates! Just Remember the Bad Times are Only-Temporary...& it DOES Get Better as the Days-Ahead become Days-Behind.

The Future always Belongs to Those who just "Hang In There"...

You're still in my prayers...& I'm pretty sure there's a Happy Ending Ahead..while Ya go through all the Hell. It's ALL Overcome-able...(I'm reminded of Dolly Parton's life) and it's all been done-before...& You Can Do It, too...

Thanks for keepin' us all In-The-Loop, Mz M...I've got faith the News'll get Better..as the days go by.

Best Wishes & Big Hugs,
Stan

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